Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Decisions, Decisions....

I make decisions every day from simple decisions that require no thought at all to decisions at work that affect people's lives; however I find myself facing a decision that for some reason is troubling me more that I ever thought it would. To some, I'm sure this post is silly compared to other "real world" problems but I decided to post anyway because I believe (or I hope) that I can't be the only person with this issue. So here goes....
After Sam was born I decided I was going to let my hair grow. I think I actually ended up cutting it a few times before I actually started letting it grow but that was my thought anyway. As any girl knows letting your hair grow gets boring and you need some "style" to it so throughout the course of letting my hair grow I did some simple different things to it. I noticed at one visit to my stylist that my hair was falling out, or so it seemed. I left there in tears but just didn't think much more about it. She and I talked and this was just a few months after my dad had died and she told me stress and other life events can affect your hair...Who knew??  The one thing she did tell me was NOT to stress over my now thinning hair b/c you guessed it....stress affects your hair. But if anyone reading this knows me at all, you know I have had MUCHO stress in the last few years and worry about everything including my hair. Anyways I still was determined. I even had this awesome plan that I was going to let my hair grow and then donate it to locks of love; my dad had cancer, my gran had cancer, many people I know and love have been affected by cancer, my friends families have been affected by cancer so what better thing to do. But I found out that locks of love didn't want my hair because it has been color treated ( I know that shocks so many of you, HA HA).  Appearance, hair, face, weight, etc...sadly define the world we live in. We are judged by what we look like and our appearance and even though I'd like to say I don't care about what people think about me, just like most people, I do.
So, here's the dilemma I've let my hair grow actively for 2 1/2 years I have enjoyed my long hair but I realize that it's not what it used to be. Frazier and I were cleaning out my grandmother's storage and I came across a picture of my beautiful long hair from college and it nearly made me cry b/c my hair doesn't look anything like that anymore.
I've read and read and read about thinning hair, I've taken vitamins, I've tried every shampoo known to man, I even have watched infomericals on shampoo, I know crazy but I've found myself desperate over hair. I guess it bothers me b/c something I feel like I should have control over I don't anymore. Maybe that's why it bothers me so much. I've looked at pictures of myself lately and it breaks my heart.
Like I stated when I started this post, I know to some that read this it's silly but to me it's sad. I used to cut 8 or more inches off my hair and not even bat an eye and maybe that's b/c the choice was mine and I feel like now I don't have a choice and I'm sad about it and still don't know whether to cut or hope for the best. I've attached a few pictures of me when I was younger with the hair I hoped to have when I started this process a couple of years ago.
So in the upcoming weeks if you see me with shorter Locks, here's the reason why!!
 ps: the smaller trophy is for prettiest hair! Go figure!!

Friday, April 13, 2012

Back to blogging!

     Ya know, I think I really do this for myself  because I like to share my life and my family with my friends. I never know who all reads this but if you do hopefully you'll enjoy it. I miss blogging but like everything else, it's new and fun for a while and then something else comes along or I get bored but I thought I'd give it another try.
     So much has happened since the last time I blogged in April or May 2010; hard to believe it's been 2 years! I lost my sweet daddy in October 2010 and what's crazy is before that summer before he died I had never envisioned my parent's dying. I guess I thought your parents died when they were old as dirt and you were old too and your kids were grown with kids of their on but I realized the hard way that's not always the way it is. I feel blessed to have had daddy for 8 days shy of 30 years but what makes me the saddest is that Sam will never get to experience what a wonderful man he was...
     Anyways life has gone on and for the most part it's been good. Sam is growing like crazy and he so independent and vocal! Watch what you say b/c he will repeat it!! He's fun. In January Frazier taught him to climb out of his bed, yes that's right, my husband taught him how. He had never once tried before so we had to go to a big boy bed. I was kind of iffy about it wondering how Sam would do but he's done great and I think that's given him a new sense of independence. Sam has also had his adenoids and a new set of tubes earlier this year and life for us has changed in the most positive way since then b/c Sam actually sleeps so much better! For you moms and dads who's kids slept all night at an early age you are very lucky! Don't ever take that for granted!
     We went to Disney World in October and that was fun! Sam rode on an airplane for the first time. I have a whole new respect for people that fly with children! Sam had a ball! He really like the playground where we stayed and his favorite part of the parks were the parades each day. We got to go to Mickey's Not so Scary Halloween party and that was really awesome! We were there for a week and had a blast!
     Moving on..Let's see we joined FBC Montgomery which has been such a wonderful experience for us. We visited a few other churches and all was good, really no complaints but FBC was the first church that Sam did the best in. He now says "I go to Sunday School" as he runs down the hall to class. This is also Frazier and my first church to join together and that is special. We are still visiting SS classes but I think we've finally found one that fits both of us just perfectly. The good thing about visiting different classes is getting to meet so many great people!
     We are so happy it's spring time now and the weather is pretty! We love being outside and watching Sam play. We had a wonderful Easter with our family and Sam thoroughly enjoyed himself and he really enjoyed the 4 egg hunts he went on, he's a pro now!
     In the past 2 years I've met so many new friends and had so many wonderful times! It's like I turned 30 and then 31 and really discovered who I was, what I liked and how much fun life really is. Don't get me wrong life was fun before then but I've just been blessed by a lot of people in the last couple of years!
    So much has happened and I could write all day but for now that's a brief update! I hope to be better about my blogging!!
     One last thing...If you are reading this I would ask that you keep Jeff & Mandy Moody and their family in your prayers. Their 7 week old baby girl Lela has been diagnosed with retinablastoma, a malignant cancer in the eye. They are traveling next week to St. Jude's hospital. They also have 2 other small children who will be with Mandy's parents. I know that I can't imagine what they are going through and the only thing I do know is the love I have for my child and that says it all. This is a precious family and they need God's healing for Lela!

Have a great weekend!